Understanding Aurum met.

Dr. Claudio C. Araujo M.D., F.F.Hom. (Lon.) et al.

What was Aurum met. first impression of his surroundings and of himself? 

Aurum feels he will never do enough to satisfy himself and his fellow men around him. This sensation is combined with a feeling of lack of strength. It’s a sort of a riddle – He is not doing what he should do and have no strength to change it – represented by the following symptoms:

Uneasiness, and hurried desire for bodily and mental activity; he cannot do anything fast enough, and cannot live so as to be satisfied with himself. 

He feels uneasy and uncertain, without orgasm, he constantly imagines he neglects something, and deserves reproaches in consequence; he appears to carry this uneasiness about him in his mind, and it deprives him of all energy and perseverance,

Sensation of internal emptiness and weakness of whole body.

Frequent attacks of anguish about heart, with tremulous fearfulness; great anguish increasing to self-destruction, with spasmodic contraction of abdomen; uneasiness and hurried desire for bodily and mental activity; he cannot do anything fast enough, and does not succeed in satisfying himself; is constantly impelled to be in motion, and is sorry for his inactivity; he imagines he is neglecting something and deserves reproaches in consequence.

Aurum will turn his life into a pursuit for succeeding in attending all of his duties and obligations. The simplest things in life will become a possible failure and a quest; he will turn his life into a search for perfection. Viewing from an external observer, the Aurum patient will be an example to follow. Someone who gives to anything and anyone all he have. He is giving all of his efforts, his determination to succeed, his strength. From Aurum’s point of view, he is not doing what he should do. He is just failing to anyone who approaches to himself.

Imagines he is neglectful and deserves reproach in consequence.

Imagines he cannot succeed in anything, and he does everything wrong; he is in disunion with himself. 

Has no confidence in herself, thinks others have none; this makes her unhappy.

Looking from an external point of view, Aurum is someone to be followed as an example. He is doing everything right, he is keen on his work and duties. He will be probably a good student, a good husband or wife, an earnest employee. A faithful friend, always at hand if someone needs him.

But why is he doing all that?

He imagines he has lost the affections of his friends; this makes him sad, even unto tears. 

He is dissatisfied with everything; he imagines obstacles everywhere in his way, partly occasioned by adverse fate, partly by himself; this latter makes him morbidly depressed. 

Despondent melancholy, he imagines he cannot succeed in anything, 

He feels discouraged and despondent; he imagines he does everything wrong, and cannot succeed in anything,.

He is fighting against his internal sensations of being a complete flop. He thinks that he had lost his friends, that he does everything wrong, it doesn’t matter how hard he works, how much he gave from himself, there will be always this deep sensation inside him: 

Melancholy, disposed to weep; imagines he is unfit for this world, that he never can succeed. 

As time goes by, his internal fighting against all these sensations will cause him a loss of strength, a continued exhaustion of mind and body:

All the time a dark, hopeless mood, frequently anxiety and despair; life is a burden to him.

Suffers constant vexation and torment. θ Jaundice.

Unsociable mood. 

Weariness; causeless vexation, . 

His altered perception of himself in taken its toll and his system is falling apart. The proving shown us how Aurum ends. Doomed after so many years of fighting and defeated only by himself, Aurum is in despair. 

Anguish of mind and great grief. θ Headache.

Despondent melancholy, he imagines he cannot succeed in anything. 

He feels discouraged and despondent; he imagines he does everything wrong, and cannot succeed in anything,

Prostration of soul and body. 

Apprehensiveness: a mere noise at the door made him anxious; he feared lest some one would come in; anthropophobia, 

Melancholic mood, disposed to shun people; if meeting some one it gives him a nervous trembling and has to weep.

Desire for solitude, 

He is now completely assured that he is a complete failure and the way to finish once for all his torment is to kill himself, to ends his life.

During pregnancy: suicidal melancholia; jaundice. 

Pain makes her desperate so that she would like to jump out of window, or dash herself down. θ Parturition.

Looks on dark side, weeps, prays, thinks she is not fit for this world, longs for death, strong inclination to commit suicide; desperate, desires to jump from a height.

Thinking of death gives him intense joy.

Great anguish increasing unto self-destruction, with spasmodic contraction of abdomen.

Tired from being fighting through out his entire living, Aurum ends his misery existence taking out his own life. He had been enduring his impressions of never been enough, never being a good friend, of never deserve the love of his beloved, of never being strong enough to change what should be changed. He had tried to become the best human being ever, to be what he imagined he should be to the others. And he had failed. He didn’t achieve what he had so much longed for. Now he is in despair, his burdensome pains must be at stop. He can’t continue any longer. He is happy to die, to ends this life of suffering and despair. 

She dreamed the whole night that she was in darkness. 

Great anguish, increasing unto self-destruction, with spasmodic contraction of the abdomen,. 

Remarkable changeability of mind, now impulsive, rash, now very merry, now sad, anxious longing to die, soon after laughing aloud. θ Hysteria.